Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Where Ya Been?


In case ya'll have been wondering where I've been lately I thought I'd use this post to maybe clear some things up. To get to the point I have been concentrating on writing and recording the original material that I have compiled over the last few years. In August, when the live recording was erased, I felt the Lord telling me to come away. Since then I have done a lot of thinking and a lot of praying. Long story short I have found a lot of things in my life that I need to be cleansed of. There are a lot of things I need to forgive for, in myself and others. I realized that I had released God from my box only to build a bigger one around Him. I realized that in my box also existed religion, elitism and disunity. My family has become a very important factor in my life and unity with my wife has become the utmost. My goals are now different than what they were three months ago. My beliefs are now different then what they were three months ago. My relationship with Jesus is more real than ever, because I've learned to be real with Him. My life is no longer consumed by "doing". I also had to ask myself the question of whether or not I was "on-board" with everything that was happening and going on around me. And I guess it is weird when you run into people and the first thing they say is "are you still going to so and so?". Like I'm supposed to break it down in the middle of an aisle at Wal-Mart. For me there are just to many things that I feel checked about. That's not to say ANYTHING negative at all by any means. Until I get things figured out in my family and my walk, I would rather step away (not down) than sow disunity. Make sense? Because my views toward certain things may differ, I am not pointing a finger at anyone or anything. I am simply trying my best to make sure that I am walking in the will of God for my life. As I am sure everyone is. And though my path may be different. I can still be in unity with the one who is walking His path for them. We can all agree that Gods will is the most important thing that we can accomplish right? So we can agree that when one is on the road to accomplishing Gods will it should be something that is celebrated. So now that that's out of the way, God has been opening and closing doors and it has been an adventure seeing what God is doing. It's been awesome over at "Bikers at the Crossing" in Goshen. The people there are so honest and hospitable. They've asked if I would lead the service the first Sunday of every month which has been an honor. These people are really after the heart of God. I was led to sit in with another worship team at "The Lighthouse" in Goshen after the Pastor called to see if I could help them out. I said yes and to my surprise Mike Kyle walks through the door. It was great playing with Mike again and after we talked it looks like Mike is gonna join us on drums the first Sunday in March. It should be great. That service we will be worshiping the whole time, which is about an hour. I really feel that God is reconnecting some relationships that were never supposed to be separate in the first place. Well, all in all I've been fine with this transition. I still love and adore all those who I don't see that much anymore and am forever grateful to them for helping God shape who I am. But now it's time for me to walk my path. About five or so years ago I received a prophetic word from a woman at a Morning Star worship conference. She said that she saw me in a room, kinda like a college dorm. And I was playing guitar and singing songs (keep in mind she knows nothing about me). She says That I am writing these songs and I'm wondering why I can't get out into the world and sing these songs. Then she said the Lord gave her a picture of me in that room and that I was barefoot. She felt the Lord saying that I have not left the room because my shoes have not been made. The path that is laid for me by God requires specific shoes that He will make. To me it says that God has designed for me the shoes I need to withstand the road that lies before me. In all of this I truly believe that my shoes have finally been made. Now I am mustering up the faith and courage to walk.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

eric - thanks man.

Anonymous said...

eric - never an enemy. you know ... unity ... john 17 ... cello!

seriously, clarification is good. i suppose for me it was more of i wish i could have had the chance for one of our infamously impromptu chats about it person to person rather than via comments on the old blog, but, this is good too :-) i know that you are a person who is always thinking about things and constantly seeking the will of God for your and your family's life, all while striving to be an authentic person... so i just pray that you will continue to discover his will for you and walk it out fearlessly and boldly.

Anonymous said...

You make Ma so proud. You have such a beautiful family. And your wife is tremendous! You know your children and your wife are gifts from God. I'm at peace knowing you are making it a priority to spend more time with them, especially that angel you are married to. Like the saying goes...Laugh much, Live well & Love often