My Life As Of Now

Well yesterday I went and picked up Jason Upton and the guys from the airport. It was really fun and interesting to see how they react with each other and stuff. You know like being dropped in a different circle of friends. They're not to different from my own circle of friends except they get to travel the country and minister to God and His people through worship. Sometimes I think it would be fun and exciting to do that and then again it seems like sometimes it would be way to stressful. So as of now I think I'll stay here. My head is in such a fog right and I recognize in this season I am to busy. I don't want the world's definition of rest, I want Gods rest, the kind that you don't have to think about or make time for but a peace that just sneaks in and kills you.

My Prayer:
"Be my strength Oh God! Hear my cry. I am a desperate man, a wounded man and I need Your seal around my heart. Strengthen and love my wife when it seems I have lost hope. Please father my kids when I don't know how. And instill in their hearts how much I love them when I can't find the strength or way to say it. You are God and not a man like me. And I'm sorry..................for everything"

This Day Happens Once A Year, Don't They All?

Well today is my birthday and I am 29 years old. I guess in a couple of years I'll finally have to start acting like an a adult. To be honest there were many times I thought that I would never make it this far. I used to live a very destructive life style, I mean with the coke binges and frequent lsd use. Anyway, I never could have imagined where I am now with a absolute beautiful wife and three smart, wonderful kids and a forth hangin out in ma's tummy. God has truly blessed me beyond my unfaithfulness. I guess what I mean is that there are so many times that I choose the flesh over Gods will and commands and He continues to love me and bless me. Right now I am being wrecked in the name of Jesus. Sometimes it feels good because I realize that I need to start over in some areas in my life and Jesus made that possible, even with us Christians, who probably sin more than the heathen at times. Well, love to all and don't be afraid of the heavenly hammer....let it smack ya sometimes instead of runnin away.